i learnt something today..

Suki nara suki to sakebeba ii...~

hmm..easier to say it to people..hard enough to do it urself..

and..i realized,ta perlu sedih kalau dia tak fikir pasal aku..ta perlu anxious kalau dia ta reply surat aku,ta perlu nervous kalau dia tak rindu aku..sebab..
a ''kae'' a day is enough..n wat makes it idling is dat it came from him..
so no need to be a masochist..just deal with it..

and i get a 'tips' from miss nightmare..
'' jgn give all your heart sgt,takut something might turn up not the way i want..''
well,tau tau jela aku ni,if im obsessed wit it,id kill for it..(okayy,not reaalllyyy,) well,actually,when i like something,that thing is the thing that will always stuck in my mind...do you even get it? *sigh*
but i guess shes right..i shouldnt do this..theres a long way to go for me...and..watever happens,i should embrace it bravely..maybe hes not for me..or maybe im not for him...either way,i hope he is the one..i dont know..hmm..*sigh*

it took a while to know..do i like him..or do i love him?
coz this has never happened to me before,me,liked by the dude i liked..never..so..this is totally new..and somehow..i felt scared..but please,if anything happen,please be my friend forever..i dont wanna loose you..
maybe not yet..yeah..maybe..
but i do think of him..every single tick of the annoying clock..
i do miss him...every time i breathe..

maybe im a sick obsessive stalker..but..atleast i wouldnt lie that i am a sick obsessive stalker..
i made it sound soo right in a wrong way..bwahahaha..
anyway..
im looking forward on this gantz thing..haishh..hope it all went well..



~Mede tashi Mede tashi~