HMM,TOO BAD..,

HE'S HUMAN....,



i'm sixteen,
i've fallen in love with a boy who's not
suppost to exist(in this world),
and i was slowly losing my freaking mind........, talk bout teh ghey..,


i need to tell him.
so wat if he laugh.
so wat if he violently rejects me.
so wat if he crushed my-jello-heart...,
they say i have to snap out of it..
like,really snap out of it.
they say hes not real.
but just trying to forget his eyes
semms like a fruitless attempt..,
*sigh*
people would've thought i'm writing bout
a boy,
a werewolf,
or maybe a jerk.
but hey,who knows...
maybe im just crapping some craps...
or maybe............
Well,let me tell you..
its unbearable,
freakingly and sufferably unbearable..
i swear i could hear him breathing!
but...
his heart stops beating after awhile..
hmm..
poor thing,
poor me..
they say its just a stupid crush..
i dunno.
honestly,i really dunno..
and honestly,i dun really wanna know...
to some people(or everyone maybe),
they'll think i already lost it..
w'ever...
i dun care............
god,i hate them..
i really do,
but i cant just shoot them on their freaking head..
first,coz i dun have a gun..
second,i dun want them to die THAT easy...duh..
i just wanna...
hmm...
this is too violent..(maybe not so suitable to write it here,)
but you get the point..
for now,ill just sit.
and listen.
and wait.
and try to get as many oxygen in me as possible..
*deeper sigh*
*more deeper sigh*
just laugh.
just endure it all.
just...just deal with it..
watever IT is..
if you think all this is just bunch of craps,
just shut dis blog..
i dun want any simpathy,
i dun want anyone.........,
hmmm...
havent been said that,
i dun giv a d**n bout anything right now..







p/s: wonder where i put it..(my jello heart..)




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