Im home??

i never thought id came across it again,but mann it felt like home.


 my 'world' which i have abandon it long time ago,my so-called sanctuary,untouched but never forgotten,had came back lingering in my silly life..he brought it back,it made me realize the comfort and ease of eating lollipops while reading (or in my term inspecting coz id be looking at all the details: drawings,kawaii-ness,language,story board and etc...) mangas! and duhh,i did love my 'world'..back when i was clumsier and crappier,people dont get it why i could just 'burn' my money or save them just to buy mangas and comics..they told me i was weird,geek,nerd and stuff.but i never gave up on them,coz atleast,i get to be idled in the 'world' where not often people came across with..so,im saying dat im lucky. and now,i felt like i betrayed my sanctuary,just leave it there,day by day,perked up by the sun,and then bamm..he came..and all the 'homework' and 'assignment' came along and wallah,it made me notice all the things i could find in my sanctuary once more..so..
i dont give a damn if he crushes my heart or rejects me politely,or maybe he'll just act nonchalant bout this,im lucky it fruits out the ''reunion''..
with a broken heart,atleast i get my 'world' back,...right???

maybe people dont get it why im like this,so quirky and weird,i dont care,i feel sorry for them,coz they dont get to know the feeling of byoki (for him) and right here,right now,im saying that i feel damn lucky,coz i love him...this is something that not many people get to experience in their fukin perfect life..
some part of me wanted to scream of envy (near to jealousy even,) coz i dont get to be like some people, although they dont have a perfect love life,atleast they can tell their partners that they love them..for me,having the courage and ofcourse,the oppoturnity to say that (anata ga suki desu or if luckier,aishiteru)...would be priceless..regardless of what will happen after that..

for now, matsu byokii..

and..

gomen' nasai, koidenai..

sweet dreams...