im now seventeen,

and im confused..,

this is..dumb..
im being ridiculous..
why am i nt happy?
okey,maybe a little,
but this is nt right..,
it felt seriously wrong...,
i dun even noe why,
it hurts soo bad..
why r u nt da one i got the spark with?
why?
coz im a losr dats why..,
honey im so sorry,
it felt...hhmmpphh..
sigh..,
god,
forgive me..
love..
please,
forgive me...
maybe i just need some time..,
or maybe,
i dont deserve anyone..,